Postby jellowrestling » Wed Jul 29, 2015 2:00 am
My earliest memory: I had probably just turned three (or was about to). I was sitting at the table, eating cooked carrots, and I didn't like them.
There are a number of memories immediately following that, such as playing army men with the little German boy who lived the floor above us; our neighbor, Herr Kuhn, bringing us chocolate (and my sister, brother and I speaking German for him); Fausching; sledding with my brother, and watching the older kids ski down the hill behind our apartment; my dad making a Ferris Wheel out of Tinker Toys at Christmas; seeing my siblings running excitedly to the kitchen, and running right behind them, only to find out that they were getting the wishbone, not something delicious to eat; getting on the plane to come to the U.S., and throwing up on the trip. Once we came to the U.S. (I was 3 1/2), I have a flood of memories, but I got a concussion when I was about 2 1/2, and all my memories are sometime after that. All of those memories are pretty vivid, and I used to have memories of our landlord/landlady, Pop and Elsa, and although I still have a vague memory, it has faded. All I remember now is that he was bald, and she was curly-headed, and they were very kind to us. In fact, I had conflated Herr Kuhn and Pop at one point, and when my mom corrected me, suddenly some of the memories came back more clearly (about Herr Kuhn). I also remember opening the door to the outside, and snow falling in (it was head-high to me).
I have always described those early memories as episodes where I briefly became "conscious". I would periodically become aware that I was aware, and those times are what I remember. By the time I was four, my "awareness" was always on (except for those two blackout experiences in college, but that's a whole 'nother story).